The 1 in 4: Team Tassin

In 2015 I found out I had a small chance of having more children. So we started on a fertility journey full of plenty of ups and downs. I went through surgeries and lots of medicines, just praying for two pink lines.

In 2016 we got pregnant with a baby girl, had a rough pregnancy, but delivered a healthy baby May 2017. Then, a few months later I felt off and we joked I was pregnant. So I took a test. (Anyone who goes through fertility knows you have a million test on hand at every given time.) I took the test and two pink lines showed up.

We were in shock since we were told we couldn’t have more kids, and to conceive naturally was a blessing. We had two girls and wanted a son. All other pregnancies were rough with preeclampsia, but this pregnancy I had no issues. Before we left to go to the doctor for the first time for this pregnancy, my husband and I prayed that the baby would be healthy.

When I reached 11 weeks, we did genetic testing and found out we were having a BOY! We were beyond excited. We prayed before appointments and started buying everything for our son.

Then one night I noticed I hadn’t felt baby move all day. I had a home Doppler and found baby’s heartbeat and it was good. I called the doctor, and they said since I was only 24 weeks not to worry. I regret daily ever using the home Doppler.

Then, at around 9:00 p.m., I felt a strong kick and felt relief. The next day I went in for a normal OB appointment and the doctor tried to find the baby with her Doppler. She could hear the placenta but couldn’t find baby’s heartbeat.

It was just me and my baby girl. They sent me to ultrasound, and as I waited in the waiting room my heart was racing. I didn’t want to accept something could be wrong with my son, so I told my husband not to come and that everything was fine. The ultrasound technician put the warm gel on my stomach and started to try to find his heartbeat. I noticed she kept moving the doppler fast, and I didn’t see his heartbeat. I kept asking what his heart rate was and saying how big he looked.